The Truth

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Life as of lately...

Well its crazy, I'll just throw that out there first. So many things going on. I would like to apologize for well lets be honest, never posting anything. I think my life is somewhat under control right now and I am going to try to keep up with my blog. 

So, Update: 

Last Tuesday, we received our letters that said weather we were accepted back for another year, or not or blessed to not come back and pursue other things. I decided not to close the door of masters because I thought that this was probably where God wanted me next year, so I applied. The application had a lot of questions on "your hopes and dreams for the future." So in my interview with Liz we talked a lot about Royal Rangers. I have felt it on my heart the passed couple of months to stay here in Rockford and start (or help develop, seeing as how it has already kind of started) the Royal Ranger program. God has really made me at peace with the idea and I now know that I am going to be in Rockford until my work is done - as Leah Hall told me today, she said to bloom where you are planted and keep blooming until you are uprooted. 

So knowing that I got my letter. We had the next like 3 hours after that to read them and talk to God and whatnot, so I walked to the nearest Coffee shop (Mary's Market) and journaled a little. I wasnt nervous at all about the letter. I then got a soup bowl (one of the handful of times this whole year I actually bought food somewhere) and read my letter. I was kind of surprised to see that I wasnt excepted back for a second year, but at the same time I was very curious. Then the more and more I thought about it the more I was excited about it. This means that the staff felt that I was to move on and pursue the things that God has put on my heart, and that if I were to stay for a second year it would only restrict me even more and hold me back from those things. 

I am currently looking for an apartment here in Rockford, and am planning on moving back here after this summer and living here, working and volunteering at the church pursuing Royal Rangers and aiding in advancing the program. What the program is now (four fourth grade boys and two dads) and what it may become is ridiculous. God has given me a vision for this church and the ridiculous amount of boys whos lives could be changed through this ministry here in Rockford. I am unbelievably excited about what God is going to do. It is going to be so good. God is in control. 

Lately I have been struggling with the mindset of me being done with masters. Its not okay at all! I keep having the attitude of "well I only have a few weeks left anyway." And It's Not Okay! I pray against that and am pursuing after God harder than ever. A runner doesnt slow down at the end of a race, they speed up and sprint the last lap or so. That is what I Pray will happen from now until graduation. God is good and he is faithful. 

If you wouldnt mind, I have some things that I am in need of prayer for:

One is my missions trip in many ways, first that the Lord would provide the 800 dollars left I have to pay to go on it, and that I would be motivated to call people who are close to me and ask for their help with finances. (I plan on doing that today.) Second is that the Lord would give the staff wisdom in calling off my trip - its in Mexico by the way... yeah - or possibly rerouting it. I know that it is going to awesome wherever and whatever we do.

Another one is guidance and favor from the Lord in finding an apartment and a Job for next year and also a Job for this summer. I dont want to work just anywhere, no matter how cool it is or how much I enjoy it, if its not where God wants me to be. And the same with my apartment, I really want to live by myself but if thats not what God wants then I dont either. 

And finally that  I would stay in the right attitude the rest of my time here before graduation, and that I would make the most of every opportunity God has given me and that I would do those things that I know I should do, just because I should do them. May I finish this year stronger than ever pressing towards God in every waking moment, and not allowing any room for those things that shouldnt be there. 

Thank you so much, and may God bless you immensely.